-Selective Amnesia-

Amnesia by rockpanda
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-Selective Amnesia- written September 11th 2008

"For LOVE of myself.
Because i can only want your company BUT so much before i wear myself out mentally.
...Not IN LOVE but out of LOVE.
For the LOVE that we never had, and for the heartbreak that u never caused
and for the tears i never cried for you.
For the COULD HAVES and SHOULD HAVES lingering in my head.
For the "is it me?" and the "what now?".
In honor of the impeccable memory i have of you...

Out of RESPECT for my mind, body and soul...im going to take a hit harder that i can stand...
for a greater good sort of speak.
In the long run my HEART will thank me for this though my body wants you here.
My skin wants to feel you and my hands want to touch you, my head plays the image of your body over and over in my head.
It replays the sex we never had, the "I Love You's" you never said
and the nights we never spent.
Yet my legs know the way to you...
my heart wants to jump out of my body when i see you
because you Promised to take care of it on that day i didn't see you.
Why cant you remember the day u said nothing at all about us being together?
How can you forget such silent chaos...?
The loud whispers in my ear...
I keep forgetting to remind myself that "WE" never happened."

-a piece of the poetic me-