ConFusiOn...ChAoS

dizzyy by 100Tangled Threads
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written on October 1st 2008

ConFusiOn...ChAoS, i cant hear my thoughts.
My heart is beating so loud, so fast.
How long is this going to last?
The butterflies in my tummy,
knees weak.......
Body jiggly like a crash dummy.
The feeling of falling from the Kingda-Ka,
fingertips numb like no mittens in Antarctica.
Face frozen to a permanent smile...and though i haven't seen u in a while...
for you I'd walk a thousand miles...like Vanessa Carlton.
I finally get the courage to say what in my mind i replayed for days...
do u think there will ever be "US"....
All along i was afraid of your answer so i tried not to FUSS,
but still ur reply hit me like a 100 mile per hour Greyhound bus...
my stomach hurt like after a box of Nerds...
like i had ten little birds...
flapping their wings in my belly...
Knees like jelly...i wanted to drop,
stop a cop...like ain't it illegal to hurt a woman's heart?
Ask Shakira!! she said so in her song....
You gotta be wrong.
This can't be life, this can't be love
This can't be right, there's gotta be more,
this can't be us
ConFusiOn...ChAoS all over again in my head...
my heart stopped beating....
FLATLINE....
dead.