I denied myself nothing my eyes desired;
I refused my heart no pleasure.
My heart took delight in all my work,
and this was the reward for all my labor.
Yet when I surveyed all that my hands had done
and what I had toiled to achieve,
everything was meaningless, a chasing after the wind;
nothing was gained under the sun.
Ecclesiastes 2:10-11
So this is me, as real as i can get and as open as i can be. I am a 23 year old mother of a beautiful 16 month old. My life as i knew it has changed completely. Today im in a better place than i was yesterday because everyday gets better. After my recent break up (about) a month ago, ive had a rude awakening. I've seen how friendships evaporate during hard times. I've learned that break ups causes bitterness beyond ones control and all that negative energy is taken out on those who we love most.
Anyway 'nuff with the mushy stuff...on the other hand i actually had my first mini get together since...and an unplanned Uno night. Though this may sound whatever to YOU i realized i lacked a social life. I got so wrapped up in being a wife/mother i forgot to live. C'mon its beautiful to be devoted but theres gotta be a common ground. You have to take care of yourself to take care of others (Thanks Spook). When u take care of urself in ALL the aspects of life (health, spiritual, social, emotional etc;) you are a more rounded human being and can the proceed to take care of others better. Last week i can say i started living. Before then i was so busy looking at all the things i dont have that i kept missing what i DO have.
Im tryna keep my eyes open and keep smiling cuz they say u never know who's falling in love with your smile..(hee hee)
Well this is it for now...till i get upset and vent!
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