Winter, Spring, Summer, Fall(ing together) [posted 9/4/08]

"But from there you will seek the LORD your God, 

and you will find [Him] if you search for Him with all your heart and all your soul."

-Deuteronomy 4:29 (Read all of Deuteronomy 4)
New American Standard Bible

Just as seasons change, people change, relationships change, situations change and mine is Fall(ing together). Everything, slowly but SURELY, seems to be revealing the truth and nothing but the truth. This summer was full of trials and tests. God put my faith to a test a million and one times, i fell on my face more than once this summer of 2008 and i got up and brushed my shoulders. I'm here ain't i? I'm standing and taller than ever...(disregard my height YOU fools!)
I started school...and this Remedial math crap is kickin my A$$.

But still i remain a warrior...i am another statistic, single mom, juggling school, home and in a few weeks work and stripping at night! (JUST KIDDIN about the strippin part!). I had my share of "baby daddy drama" and I'm over it. I'm up on my feet again and I'm back, i don't plan on ever falling again (I'm not talking about Love) or EVER (and they say never say never so i said EVER) changing my plans in life for anyone. I said before "live with me in MY TODAY or live without me in your tomorrow". If you love me, love me now...say what u wanna say today, lets do what we want now because tomorrow is so uncertain and scary. Life makes unexpected turns, so lets live like tomorrow doesn't exist...
What if YOUR tomorrow never gets here? What if today were MY last day? Will you say all those beautiful things to my corpse at the funeral? What difference will it make then?
I always hear i have a great way with words or the words of a Poet(or some Bullsh*t) but in order to have a "WAY WITH WORDS" they must truly come from a fist size, blood pumping, device machine thingamajig called a heart.
God has blessed me with a BIG OL' HEART that cant stop forgiving those who hurt me and gives me faith and hope in a better tomorrow. I can't hate or be angry forever because it starts wearing me out...i started changing my attitude from the inside out. When you are truly in your happy place like peter pan....the world can see it. You have a glow that not even the cloudiest rainy days can dull.
I'm not saying all of a sudden I'm Miss HappyGoLucky but shiiiiit I'm very close to it. I have friends that wont let me down...damn u guys...always on point. I've made new friends (hi Ang, kPoPP, Sandra, Wanda, Janell) and I've re-connected with a few others. School is on point! (3.2 GPA bitches...wait till i hit 3.5) and i got the job i needed to work around my school schedule and that will connect me to my future once i get my Radiology Technician Associates Degree. (ps: i doesn't stop there, I'm continuing my education losers)
Fall is another season...a change in weather. POINT BLANK...a change. A MUCH needed change! Already planning out the closing to 2008. Tryna close it with a B-A-N-G!
Hey I'm really Over this year! I'm ready to start over....BRAND NEW...